Well now I can tell you that most of the time when I get to know someone new and fall in love with her,I'm a no.1 disaster.
Recently I confessed to her and it was disastrous. It's like self inflicting pain onto yourself as only i felt the pain and not the other party so I was like fucking pissed off and to tell you the truth,turned off too..forever.
It only made everything worst as i thought things were going great for me so far.
I was wrong.
Now I don't ever fucking have faith or believe in love anymore.
I only believe in "Flings","One Nite Stands" and whatsoever.
Like the matreps always say..."BUAT PAKAI". I think it's better off. Fuck and fuck off.Period.
I once heard a sad story from a friend of mine.
He told me a story about his friend who happens to be one of the best drummers in Singapore.
He went insane.Certified. All because of a very long relationship he had with a girl and they broke off. Now he's just an insane person walking the streets with a wine bottle in his hand. Alcoholism takes all your sorrows away I believe and all that talent has gone to waste of one stupid woman.This shows how a woman can manipulate a man in a terrible and sad way.We know we are egoistic creatures but it comes to a point in love where ego is not a factor.
END OF PART 1.
Ok now after all that bullshit.
When I was feeling like shit I saw this girl in the bus. Bus no. 12 to be precise.
We are both from the same school fortunately.
She's like an angel when i first laid my eyes on her.(I think it's the effects of depression,drinking rootbeer+isotonic drink mixed while smoking reds too. I was abit high to tell u the truth.Haha)
I HAD AN INSTANT CRUSH ON HER AND WE ACTUALLY EXCHANGED GLIMPSES IN THE BUS. AAAAHHH!
Sorry got excited for a moment.
My ipod was playing and Every You and Every Me by Placebo came up...it was so cliche'.
It's like fate but on the devil's side.
Eventually I was too engrossed in her and i missed my stop.-_____-
I had no choice but to drop at the same stop as her...which was 2 stops after my stop.
And we live in Pasir Ris. I AM SOO SURPRISED! I am so happy as i smiled at her at the door while alighting off from the bus and she gave me the best smile at that moment of my life. The feeling was priceless.
And eventually I had to walk home which was fucking far from where i dropped off with her. I'll do anything for her. But still love is just a term for me now. I'm more interested in making friends with her and making ourselves happy if I ever get a chance to know her more.=)
The moral of my story is,
Well....I have no fucking Idea.
You tell me.
End.
